Everyday I wake up, get ready to school, eat breakfast, drive, park, attend my classes, have Mike walk me, eat lunch, spy on Edward, pretend he doesn’t exist, suck in Gym, go home, do homework, cook dinner, eat, exchange words with Charlie, and go to my room.
It’s been a dreary routine, one I feel I can’t get used to, the only exception to the routine was this month’s Hallmark holiday. Renée sent me a hand made Valentine’s day card. She’s taking Calligraphy, another one of those things that spark her attention for a little while until she moves on to something else. At school Eric handed a deep red rose like burgundy to every girl in our class and Tyler gave me a small box of chocolates. Mike gave Jessica, Angela, and me, heart shaped lollipops, and I received a few carnations at lunch. I think I saw Edward glance towards me but it could’ve been my imagination, I saw that his eyes have lost its golden hues and are now onyx. In Biology he was as non-existing as ever. I don’t bother greeting him if he fails to acknowledge me. I keep my distance and hide my curiousity behind a mask of indifference.
Charlie thinks I have a thing for Mike Newton. I’m sure his dad has spoken to Charlie and something was revealed about Mike’s feelings. He’s a really nice guy and all but I have nothing to give back. I’m like a cactus taken away from the desert and relocated to a forest. I don’t belong. Then again, I don’t think I belong anywhere.